When they were prepping me for my cancer treatment they discovered that my heart was not working at a maximum percentage. I can almost hear the good natured sarcastic comments from my friends. Yes, I will admit that the doctor has shown that I do have a heart but that it isn’t working as well as it should. So, today I met my cardiologist and tomorrow I get to do a stress test. Another admission, it has been a while since I ran for more than two minutes straight. Hopefully not because I can’t but basically because I have no desire to run for more than two minutes straight (who really does? 🙂 )
What I loved about my visit today was the greeting in the examination room. Some doctors put their diplomas and certifications on the wall. Not my cardiologist, his room was full of these.
I would like to think that I am in good hands.
Update – passed my stress test and there is no structural issues in my heart. That means my arteries are ok.
The puzzle continues.
Week one of the cancer treatment was difficult. The Cancer Team communicated all of the potential side effects ahead of time and thankfully I did not experience all of them. Receiving the treatment in the hospital was actually the easiest part of the first week, minus the bruises I now have on my arms from failed intravenous attempts. The worst part of the week was the latter half of the week after receiving my Neulasta needle. I am grateful for the boost in production of my white blood cell count but I felt just absolutely lousy for most of the week. Weak, nausea, brutal insomnia, inflamed mid-section, what felt like an advanced heart rate at night . . . just crazy. I am looking forward to talking to my doctor about all of this next week as I get ready for Round 2 to begin.
I am in week two. I am affectionately calling it the first week of a two week vacation from my cancer treatment. I don’t take any drugs this week or next and the biggest challenge has been sleep. Every day seems to get a bit better. I am so thankful for that. So far I have been able to keep on working. I am off the treatment weeks but I have been trying to do 5 hour days at the church office. I love the people I work with and getting to interact in decision making and ministry even if at a reduced level. This has been helpful for my spirits.
I am so grateful for the many who have maintained contact with me and are praying for both Brenda and I. We are blessed with the many who care deeply about and for us.
God is answering prayers.
Please pray for the beginning of Round 2 on April 15. This is the hardest thing right now, knowing that I have to go through this again.
We give you praise because we know that your steadfast love endures forever. We know that there is nothing that separates those of us who are in Christ from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8). Nothing, not even death itself, separates us from your steadfast love.
We give you praise because we know that you are good. You are a stronghold in the day of trouble and you know who takes refuge in you (Nahum 1:7). We pray for those of us who are sick that we will find refuge in you.
We give you praise because we know that you are the Lord who heals. You called yourself the healer in Exodus 15 so we believe that you are the healer.
We trust in you Lord!
We pray for healing. Please Lord, heal us of our sickness for your glory.
Even as we pray for physical healing we pray for a deeper kind of healing.
We pray that we would trust in the goodness of your sovereignty. Help us to know how good your plan and control is.
We ask that you make this time of illness and suffering an opportunity for ministry. As you comfort us in affliction may we be able comfort hose who are in any affliction with the comfort which we ourselves are comforted by God (2 Corinthians 1:4). Help us to be ministers of the Gospel to those who are around us.
Please Lord let us experience your grace that is sufficient for us, knowing that your power is made perfect in weakness . . . For the sake of Christ help us to be content with our weakness knowing that when we are weak, then we are strong (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).
We know that this battle is physical but even more it is a battle for our minds and our hearts. Father, help us to renew our minds (Romans 12:2) and put on the whole armour of God (Ephesians 6) as we fight against the enemy – the evil one himself, Satan. Keep us faithful, knowing that he who has begun a good work in us will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6).
In Jesus name and for your glory,
Thankful for the past two days and the treatment that I received at Joseph Brant Hospital. Staff was great.
God was so gracious with many little and big things. I am constantly reminded of His care, faithfulness, and steadfast love. It is true that the Lord is my shepherd and I shall not want. Even in the valley of the shadow of death there is so much to celebrate.
I am definitely at the beginning of this journey but I am thankful for this start.
I have never been a quilt kind of guy but when I got this today I understood the importance of these not so little gestures to cancer patients in many of our hospitals across this great country. So blessed!
It is Monday March 25, 2019
This morning I got up, ate breakfast and headed off to the hospital. It is happening! This morning was such a raw moment. The surreal became real. Although not beyond the level of possibility in my mind, I just did not envision cancer as part of my life story at this point in my life. But that all changed today.
I am thankful for the past number of days where I was able to give my emotional responses to my Lord . Waiting has been the hardest part up to this point. Now the waiting is over and the wondering about what is going to happen to my body begins. I am so thankful for Jesus Christ and his ongoing presence in my life. His Spirit is carrying me through the challenges. I am asking for fruit of the Spirit during this time – joy, peace, patience. Today those prayers started to be answered. The prayers of God’s saints are being answered. So grateful.
And in honour of my Dookies and Zion’s blowout I bought myself a new pair of shoes. I am calling them my “cancer kicks” – got to have a sense of humour.
No one ever plans on having cancer.
It is no respecter of persons, and as it turns out even this 57 year old.
I have to admit it all feels so surreal. But I heard the words “you have cancer” come out of the mouth of a doctor addressed towards me, no one else, just me. I am used to thinking of cancer as something someone else deals with. I have learned this past month that there are many who are indeed dealing with this curse of sin, the brokenness of our world. It is like when you buy a new car and then you realize how many other people have the same make and model already on the road. What you thought as unique to you is not that unique at all.
I have spoken with young and old and I have heard so many stories of faith, the triumph of the soul in the midst of great uncertainty. The Spirit, the power of God, is indeed at work in our weakness.
Someone recently asked me, “how are you feeling about it?”
This is a struggle. Yes it is physical but the greatest battle is in my mind and heart. The war as always is not primarily physical it is spiritual. The enemy longs to win even as we who are in Christ long to overcome. To rest in God’s sovereignty is the greatest privilege. To believe that He is all is so freeing. To know that for me to live is Christ but to die is gain is joyful.
This is an opportunity. In the face of death what greater way to glorify God than to live for Christ empowered by the Spirit. An opportunity to live today within the reality of my greatest hope, eternity. I will soon begin chemo and no doubt experience many of the not so wanted side effects. I know I am not alone in facing these kind of challenges. May it be so every day for as long as we have breath to live for Christ.
“The Lord is good a stronghold in the day of trouble and he knows those who take refuge in Him” – Nahum 1:7