No one ever plans on having cancer.
It is no respecter of persons, and as it turns out even this 57 year old.
I have to admit it all feels so surreal. But I heard the words “you have cancer” come out of the mouth of a doctor addressed towards me, no one else, just me. I am used to thinking of cancer as something someone else deals with. I have learned this past month that there are many who are indeed dealing with this curse of sin, the brokenness of our world. It is like when you buy a new car and then you realize how many other people have the same make and model already on the road. What you thought as unique to you is not that unique at all.
I have spoken with young and old and I have heard so many stories of faith, the triumph of the soul in the midst of great uncertainty. The Spirit, the power of God, is indeed at work in our weakness.
Someone recently asked me, “how are you feeling about it?”
This is a struggle. Yes it is physical but the greatest battle is in my mind and heart. The war as always is not primarily physical it is spiritual. The enemy longs to win even as we who are in Christ long to overcome. To rest in God’s sovereignty is the greatest privilege. To believe that He is all is so freeing. To know that for me to live is Christ but to die is gain is joyful.
This is an opportunity. In the face of death what greater way to glorify God than to live for Christ empowered by the Spirit. An opportunity to live today within the reality of my greatest hope, eternity. I will soon begin chemo and no doubt experience many of the not so wanted side effects. I know I am not alone in facing these kind of challenges. May it be so every day for as long as we have breath to live for Christ.
“The Lord is good a stronghold in the day of trouble and he knows those who take refuge in Him” – Nahum 1:7